First of all, I can't even TELL you how amazing you are. Seriously. You are the most amazing little being ever to have found his way into my arms. (Can you tell that I'm slightly enamored with you?)
Now, let me also say that you completely surprised me! And you made your daddy SO happy by deciding to come early. I was certain you were going to wait until the first Sharks game of the season to make your appearance, which would have been October 3. That meant that you would have been like your cousins, aunties and mommy--late. But, I guess this is just a lesson that I don't get to create the schedule anymore.
Come to think of it, you've been teaching me to relinquish control from the very beginning. I haven't gotten to choose the way any of this process has gone, other than a few minor details. It's still hard for me to just sit back and let someone else steer, but it's getting easier. Your sweet face certainly helps. :^} I know that God's plan for you and us is better than anything I could ever come up with, so that is also a huge comfort.
Speaking of my parenting skills, please know that I am still learning! And I'm already making mistakes. But you need to know that I love you more than I ever even knew was possible, and everything I do is a direct result of that love. I have a feeling that if you had the slightest idea how much I love you, you'd never do anything that might make me sad or upset. But...you won't have any idea until you have a child of your own. And that's okay. We all make decisions that hurt our parents (and ourselves), so I don't expect you to be any different.
Until you are old enough to start making those decisions, though, I will just love on you as much as possible and cherish every single happy moment we have together! Because right now, you only make me happy. Even when you're crying and nothing I do seems to help, I am nothing but happy to hear your sweet cry because it's YOURS. And you are mine.
LOVE YOU, BABY!
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