Love Your Heartbeat!

Today, I was feeling anxious about you. Initially, when I hadn't heard your heartbeat at our appointment on March 3rd, I wasn't worried, because I knew the device the midwife was using didn't work very well for women who are less than 12 weeks along. Well, this morning I woke up afraid for you. I started to think about all the women I'd read about who had lost their babies in utero but didn't know for weeks until their next ultrasound. Knowing that I still had 3 weeks to go before getting the chance to hear you again made me very upset.

I know that ALL women experience this same anxiousness, so I tried to calm myself down with that particular fact, but it wasn't working. I emailed Susan, one of our midwives, and asked her what I should do to ease my mind. This is what she said:

"Telling you all is well won't help you much. If you can make it in to Modesto this afternoon, I can see you today and listen for the heartbeat. Call, tell them you spoke to me and that I said I would be delighted to see you."

What a blessing! I raced my butt over to the hospital and in about 10 seconds she found your sweet beating heart with the Doppler! Oh, Baby, we are so lucky to have her. She goes to Big Valley and she told me the next time I am anxious or nervous to recognize that as the enemy trying to steal my joy and peace and say out loud, "Flee from me, Satan!" So, now that's what I'll do. I cannot let him take this joy from me!

Love you, Baby!